(Sunday, November 7, 2010 / 9:39 AM)
heloo earthling
blogging again
been working till late cos off quiting sd
and work another place
so no off and didnt have the time to rest either =/
well, im going to work with jh again
hope nothing goes wrong
well today quite good mood cos i saw him
but dodnt get to talk much
but anw we sms each other
toward him i felt close and we always quarrel and dunno why
today while talking he pause and look at me cos i make up toda and he tease me
first time he saw and he tease me wthhhh!!
but anw,i use to it already
but too bad,didnt get to go out with him and talk to him MORE!!
anw, tml i going tanning with ym already
like after years of rejecting her
LOLS, gulity meeee =/
alright now i going to watch my drama
byeee
(Friday, October 29, 2010 / 4:59 AM)
dear blogger, i haven't been blogging since me and him broke up
and i always busy to keep my self away from thinking of him
recently i know this guy at my new workplace
a malaysia guy which i just know him from few weeks
older then me by 6
get along pretty well =D
but what i feel was he just treat me like sister
and i worries of getting into a relationship now
i don't wan history repeat
we exchange number already but i didn't allow my colleagues to know ask they will tease me again
the guy always come and talk to me when im at work,slack with me when ever we are free
send me home before and im quite happy as im the first person who get a ride home cos he doesn't know the road well so sweet of him to send me home
otw home by his motor is kinda worries cos his driving is very fast and i almost hug him! LOLS
but i have to keep a distance from him i dont want him to think im a girl who rush thing out
and i dont even know i should continue to contact him anot
im being messaging him for the pass few day and i also think of him so how
but i dont want to make him as a replacement of nicholas
i want to forget nicholas totally before i step into another relationship and
i dont want fake hope in anyone
expectedly from this new guy as he is a malaysia and older then me by 6
i dont want to rush thing until i know him well to go into a relationship with him
but he really treat me well enough
just hope he isn't a replacement of nicholas cos im lonely that all
done blogging now, i will blog again when im down =D byeee
(Tuesday, July 27, 2010 / 9:11 AM)
im wrong to do this, but i let go
and u choose to let go of me too
you already say this
im not longer yours
im free
back to my freedom life
if i choose my freedom life
i wont choose to be with u in the first place
i wont choose to give you everything i have
i wont choose u as my boyfriend after 3years
it fate that bring us together
but is our truth and love make us dirft apart
now i have to totally get you out from my mind
erase you away,but i cant remove you love for me from my memories
it always hurtful when i see ur status
i see the gift u give me
i hugs them tight to keep away my tear from flowing down
i wish u mine, but the wont happen anymore
theres isnt a chance to save this love anymore
it time i say goodbyye
i wont text u anymoree
even though i still love youu
but these doesnt matter anymore
(Sunday, July 25, 2010 / 8:44 AM)
this post is just for uu
you know who u are
if u think i will forget u
replaced u with any guy
i think u wrong
totally wrong! im not better off without uu
i wish u could get me back to your side
you say u want ur freedom life
so i let u have by choosing to let go
izit so hard to get u back by my side
u dont want be tied down by love
then what u want
i dont even wanna tell me
could u just be my boyfriend again?
let's erase the bad memories?
u know how much u mean to me
u noe i cant replaced uu with someone else
u know i want u back badly
but i dont see u wanting me back
didnt see the love u have for me anymore
the guy i use to know
the guy that love me deeply once before
the guy i willing to give everything to
the guy that i love him deeply before
the guy i wish i could spent my time with everyday
i wish i could see the potiential of u and me again
be my love again? will u?
(Tuesday, July 13, 2010 / 9:10 AM)
i hope u reading my blog now love
i wanna let u know
i care about you
i want you to tell me whats wrong between us
but you choose not to
i love you, but i dont feel your love anymore
you found someone better then me?
you could have just tell me
i wanna let you go
but you as me dont
you dont want me let you go at least you tell me!
you still love me!
nic please tell me a answer?
i love you alot!
(Saturday, July 3, 2010 / 10:41 AM)
dear blog. something sad or something happy should i say?
finally it's fouth month with my honey baby
but i just cant feel
feel his love
the love he use to give
maybe im thinking too much again
finally i wear dress out with him
but it's doesnt seem good
why cant i feel the love from him anymore
am i gonna be replaced?
i hope im not
im happy to be with him together for four months
his the one i really love alot
his totally different from my ex-bf
his like
someone i cant leave without anymore
someone i wish to spend my life with
but does he think the same way?
god,im thinking too much again!
difference between with my ex bf
he show some of his care and concern
he try his best to proof his love
he try his best to make me happy
every single word he say
it willl make me sad,happy,over joy,sweet, emotional break down
it brings me high and low
he give me what i needs
what i want the most
his really my half apple
he knows whats i want and what i dont
present from him was teddy bears
that the best thing i ever wanted
i received his love
but the only thing i dunno is
am i first in his list or not
am i important to him or not
he doesnt seem to care my feeling something
he always tell his friends that he is with his workmate when eva we are out together
im feel like, you know!
do i look like your GIRLFRIEND!
why cant you just tell them
arghh,i know he dont like.. but.. argh.. i dunnno what to say
this always make me speechless!
if he gonna treat me as his workmate
im going MAD!
should i do the same things as he do?!
im outx with my workmates yoz! wtfff
im soooo sooooo fucking dunno what my mind wannnt!
FUCK MY LIFE! CHEEEE BYYEEEEE!
(Monday, June 28, 2010 / 4:51 AM)
baby if you reading this now
im sorry
i dunno what i want
im happy when i get to see you
but when i seee you not in the mood
i feel so xin ku
my tears.. is like flowing out!
but i dont want cry infront of you
because i dont wanna make you fan
am i bringing you pain?
do i have to let you go?
i hope when we are alone
we really thinkk
i wish i dont needa let you go
when you with me, are you suffering badly?
i dunno what i suppose to do now
im crying alone in my room,not eating
totally no appetize because all im doing is thinking about you!
is true that i say we needa be alone
but im all worries already
im worries about you
i wanna know!
what gonna happen between us
i didnt ask much
im happy,but at the same time im sad
im happy at least you make some time for me to have dinner together
then go home
but u're tired and that make mee feel like im making uu even more tired!
i dont wana be a bad girlfriend
so i say go home,but when we standing there,all i could see on you face was tired
that why i ask you go take your bus
at that moment,my tears, about to flow out! i dont wishh u see me crying. because you dunno what to do
and u be more FAN after you see me=(
how long more do we gonna be like this! i dont wish it always happening between us
i wishh it could stop right now
i dont wanna let you go, because you belong to me and i also belong to you
i wanna hold your hand till century
not just second but forever
my heart is now broken into piece,are u gonna make it back
to how it's suppose to be when we first met?
i cant feel your love anymore
or just that you not showing it?
i know you care for mee
but maybe just that i cant feel
or it not obvious enough?
maybe i didnt show my care and concern toward you too
or maybe im asking too much from you
im all confused
tell me the answer could you?
sms me asap after you okays?
i reallly reallly dont wish to let you go,but if u need me to
i will,i will let the pain im putting to uu
honeyy babe im sorry
